I am part of the Church of the Out-of-Control. I once was a control junkie, but now am an Out-of-Control Disciple. I’ve given up my control of God. I trust and obey the Sprit. I’ve jumped off the fence, I’ve stepped over the line, I’ve pulled out all the stops, I’m holding nothing back. There’s no turning back, looking around, slowing down, backing away, letting up or shutting up. It’s life played without Goal Lines other than, “Thy Will be Done.”
I can’t be bought by any personalities or perks, positions or prizes. I won’t give up, though I will give in… To openness of mind, humbleness of heart, and generosity of spirit. When short-handed and hard-pressed, I will never again hang in there. I will stand in there, I will run in there, I will pray in there, I will sacrifice in there – in fact I will do everything in there but hang.
My face is upward, my feet are forward, my eyes are focused, my way is cloudy, my knees are worn, my seat uncreased, my heart burdened, my spirit light, my road narrow, my mission wide. My fundamental identity is as a disciple of Jesus – but even more, as a disciple of Jesus who doesn’t walk through history simply ”in his steps,” but seeks to travel more deeply in His Spirit.
Until he comes again or calls me home, you can find me filling, not killing time, so that one day he will pick me out of the lineup of the ages as one of his own. And then… It will be worth it all…to hear these words, the most precious words I can ever hear: “Well done, thou good and faithful… Out-of-Control Disciple.”
“Magna Carta of an Out-Of-Control Disciple”
Author Leonard Sweet.